Next
I've been dreaming in full
living color
lately
i dreamed of a beauty mark,
yes,
a slight mole
on a beautiful woman's upper lip
next night i saw
a woman with a beauty mark
on her beautiful upper lip
on the t.v. screen
i saw a bill board sign the next day,
along a well known freeway
with the name louis on it in bold,
a few minutes later
while still driving
a real louis
called me
i had a premonition
the next day,
about my 13 year old dog
had to do with her health
and yes,
within the next days
following
she died
on our last trip together
we were far from home
at the same place
i met a navy man
he flew fighter jets
and military helicopters
cool man
trying to find himself
on the road
got home the next day
the t.v. shows a navy fighter pilot
looking alot like the acquaintance
been thinking alot
about mortality
short lifespan
the quickness
of the passage of time
yesterday,
before the next days came,
i pondered,
when i was young
all my loved ones once here
now gone
i'm next
i've had the prophetic
of the modern prophets,
dreams and outcomes
come to pass
signs and leads from God
affecting me
i realize
i live in an alternate
state of mind
i know many things
with not enough words to define
them
and no one to listen to me
about them
and if they did listen
they would appear to hear
they would feign,
but not understand
nor care
i remain silent
stoic
working the motions
holding my spiritual breath
invisibly,
crawling out of my tormented skin
enduring the mundane
the stupefying outcomes
of what i know
will come next
regarding human behavior
i've seen beginnings
but no ends
ends
but no beginnings
i've seen beauty beyond description
in nature
and all of creation
within my utterly limited boundaries
of observation,
wildlife and humans
with predictable repetitious endings
with seeming new
non ending repetitions
always ending
hard on my heart all this
a torment to my mind
knowing the truth is not enough
i thirst
i hunger
and invisibly cry
with mostly a deadpan look
worn on my face
all of us are running here and there
with seeming short lived objectives
non lasting fruit
next days have come
so i went to see,
carol king,
a theatre play
an unexpected friend
of a friend
named carol attended with us
another next day came
it later brought my dog's death
by stroke
as in aneurism
next night
i too
exhibited
unexpected
similar symptoms
stumbled about
having risen from bed
near mid night,
losing equilibrium
with headaches
for the next three days
following . . .
thought i was next
like my beloved dog,
but somehow,
it seemed,
four shots of jameson
y'know
the whiskey,
cured me
in the theatre,
while watching
with the carols