The first night alone//homesick for us

First night alone with the remaining parts of you and the family we created. One last night with our baby girl and I can’t but to feel homesick. I didn’t want this, I didn’t want to lose you, to lose the cat and soon our second dog. And above all lose you. but you made your bed and I have to sleep in the one I had to find on my own with out you, as you sleep next to our cat and him are you happy? Was it worth the eviction? The loss of our family and the life we made? I feel home sick and sick to my stomach, even though I know this has been a long time coming. Just didn’t want to accept the changes or the loss of you all. But I’ll carry on with this broken heart with lessons learned, while I father our boy in hopes for the better. I hope mila is loved unconditionally by you two, I hope Freya ends up in a good home where ever she goes I hope I have the strength and the ability to preserver for Benji. I hope you find your peace and happiness you always wanted. I hope I can find happiness one day and to figure out my path in life. As our chapter closes regrettably.., I hope we all find peace and love one day. and the love we all deserve.. I hope for better days for you all. I just hope..