You're still out there
But in my mind it feels like you're dead.
My heart grieves you as much as it did
When one of my closest friends really did die.
I know how that sounds
How I'm downplaying his death
Because you're still alive
We ended, but it wasn't your end.
You're still here, or there rather
You didn't go anywhere.
You still live five minutes away,
I just can't come to your house, no matter how near.
I miss you dearly,
And my heart yearns for you
Part of me wants to throw away everything I have
To let it all go in hopes of a part two.
I wish we would have made it work
I hate feeling like we left it incomplete.
But maybe it's for the better
Maybe it was the only way to save me.
I hope that though I lost you,
And I lost all the dreams of you and me on a beach
That I gained something valuable
I hope I figure out how to be me.
I want to love and to laugh
I want to finally be content, to be satisfied.
But I think I have to move on
From this point on, I can no longer cry.
I have to put you in the past,
And never look back.
I have to just keep moving forward,
And it's you I have to thank, you taught me that.