1 month aftermath

As the days become weeks to a month now, I’m still cleaning the destruction from the path you chose. Not a day goes by where I don’t love you but the damage is done so I have to choose me. Left to the animals in a disarray situation of an apartment.. you haven’t give me any choices. It wasnt toxicity that drove you away no it was the healthy in me trying to strive for better myself and in you. It scared you, made you feel uncomfortable knowing you had someone look out for you and take care of you. It scared you, to the point of leaving me for another and leaving us behind. You broke this family, their hearts as well as mine. Was it worth it? To throw Away 4 years of a life we had built together? To discard my feelings and our animals like we were nothing? Yet you say “I love you” as if it’s a magic reset button. I can’t and won’t. I’ll love you from afar in the distance knowing the dangers and trauma you’ve caused. I hope it was worth it. That momentary fleeting high he gave you..