unexplainable explainable brain breakage
back
resting on hard metal
of the bedframe i slept on
for most of my life
back
in the room where i
wished on baby teeth
scribbled on diaries
slept on rainbow sheets
didnt think it would
happen
here now
but i cried in the car
and
we pretended i didnt then
you
waited on me to pack a bag and
i couldnt
couldnt hold in
illogical tears
squatted besides a table
i painted for my sister and
held my hands over my mouth
and sobbed
and waited for you to find me
because i couldnt speak
cant speak
can never speak silent
back
behind the bed the door opened
and i didnt know it was you until you
put your hand on my
back
whispered
held me
waited
loved me
put everything you were carrying
back
until it was just us
and my tears
and i said im sorry
and you said i dont need to be
and we went back
to silence
tearsoaked fading carpet
warm arm around my shoulder
thoughts slowly fading back
to normal
back to someplace that lets me breathe
im still sorry
that i cant speak and i dont know what i am
but thank you for bringing me
back
12.29.24