Goodbye Baby.

Standing in the shower while the red runs down the drain

I never got to meet you, I don’t even know your name

I’ll never hear you laugh or cry or hold your little hand

You’ll stay this small and stay this still, and you may be buried in the sand

They’ll pat my back and say I’m fine, but you will never be

I’ll never hear your happy coos or witness when you see, all the things you couldn’t when I held you in, so close to me

My heart feels like a weight is there, I can’t make it calm or leave, I can’t seem to stop missing your tiny love no matter the words they speak

All the firsts and all the lasts -withering like dew, oh my precious little one I wish we could keep holding on, I wish we could keep holding on to you

Anger comes and anger goes, it’s mourning now that plays, I don’t understand why you chose the path that would make us part our ways

But there you slip and there you creep, you’re going far away, as I watch all that sustained you now forbidding you to stay

Someday we will meet, it will finally be the day, the day I get to hold you, make all this sadness go away

So bye for now my little one, I’m sorry we have to part

But know from now into eternity, you’ll always be in my heart

Goodbye baby.