Creed

I know what it means to be heavy

To be tied to the flesh

I once heard someone say that...

Satan rules the earth

While Jesus rules the heavens

I thought that was strange

How could a Christian believe that Satan rules the world?

I get it now

I am permeated by it

Drenched in it

Addicted to it like a fiend

The stench, the flavor, the texture

The rotten sick

I am addicted to this world

And it is heavy

I literally move like a man of a hundred and two

I move like a mountain

Crushed by the desire of earthly things

Hunger, grief, fear, pain, anger

You must submit to Jesus they said

Be a servant of G-d

I might say it differently

That you must obey your higher self

You know what is right...

Though obeying yourself is self-serving, literally

I suppose you cannot submit, unless it is submission to another

I once heard someone say that "Islam" literally means

To submit...

Why must we serve a higher power in order to be free?

Though, haha...

I am already a servant

I have submitted to "Satan" and his kingdom of earthly things

I am a slave to my earthly fears and desires.

Must we always submit to something?

I am a dog

But my head is the owner

And the owner is confused

Who is leading?

Is it I?

Is it G-d?

I can say for certain that it is evil that leads me now.

Who is best to follow?

Is it I?

Is it G-d?

Hold me now

I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking

Maybe six feet...ain't so far down...