Doubt

That sinking feeling

Creeping, crawling

Worming it's way into

My thoughts,

My heart,

My soul.

My overthinking mind,

Spins and whirls,

With pent up

Anxiety,

Worry,

Doubts.

Am I fooled again?

Was I wrong to trust?

To try and see the good in you?

Deep breaths turn to choking sobs.

The horror show that replays in my head, making me feel

Like I'm the crazy one?

Attempts at maintaining a sense of

Normalcy

Are fruitless.

As I continue to spiral

Into the chaos of my feelings.

Holding my head high,

Despite its heaviness,

Despite the mental weight dragging me down.

I wait...

Again...

For you.

By: C.R.Williams