Loathe

How do you forgive someone you hate?

Devastation yawns like a great, gasping pit in my chest.

My head aches, but it's better than heartache which I'm also inexplicably stricken with for a lifetime.

I blame you- so I try to break your every heart beat.

I loathe me, so I soothe with deep cuts and remember every horrible thing I've done,

anticipating every bad dream before it happens.

A psychic for psyche dysfunction. An unholy union, my heart and mind.

Constantly warring- neither winning, leaving the other side bedraggled and begrudging.