I never meant to be a clown
just wanted to be funny cute
amusing mirthful your source
of smiles grins happy laughter
me with my silly made up face
red nose lips painted up smirk
dashingly mysterious comical
doing tricks bits of fools magic
to your adoring sighs ohs ahs
gigglingly lovably entertained
now without warning
you run from my sight
covering wide eyes terrorized
sickened screaming to escape
terrified revoltingly disgusted
I have not changed
my act appearance
yet you shun me as a horror
vomit curses spit obscenities
crying help repelled sickened
frantically I pull rabbits
from my floppy sleeves
silver rings handkerchiefs
fake paper flowers appear
from thin air as a delight
dance flop down play dead
spew balloons from my lips
stuff myself in a top hat
all things you once loved
make you hate me more