Mindset

It's easy to play the victim. It's easy to get angry, and even furious, at the state of the world. Let's be real: I am angry every single day. I don't want to have kids because I think the world is a decrepit wasteland, and the only thing running it is bills, sickness, and hatred. I don't even have access to universal healthcare, for f*cks sake.

But here's my advice, to you and myself: mindset.

I have wanted to run screaming from rooms. I have bitten my hands in fits of rage. I have sneered at others, cut people off, rolled my eyes at minor inconveniences.

Mindset. Someone said: no emotion is permanent. I have to do things I love to forget my rage. I go to the gym and run on the treadmill until I don't feel anger, or much of anything. I feel calm. I feel whole. I feel complete.

Mindset.

In order to go to the gym, one has to get out of bed. In order to go to the gym, one needs to pull on their big girl pants and suck it up in the traffic it takes to get there. One needs to sign in, and watch people watching them, perhaps even judging them. One needs to tie their sneaker's laces and suck it up, period.

My advice to anyone struggling is: it's all in your head. No emotion is permanent. It's all how you make it.

I'm not saying go to the gym, necessarily, but it's helped me.

One of my favorite memes of all time is: someone asks a man working at a grocery store if they can try the grapes. He says: I wouldn't care if you lit this place on fire with me in it.

Yeah, that: when I feel that, I go to the gym, and run until my mindset is once again mine - calm, whole, complete.

It's all only what you make of it.