What to do with this substantial check, in 500 words or less?
Substantial to one is survival to another.
$1000 is a lot of food, even with eggs at $5/dozen. But it won’t cover a month’s rent.
$5,000 would cover the rent, but not the credit card debt.
$10,000 pays the credit, but not the student loans.
$25,000? A deep breath of relief I haven’t taken in years.
A moment of swimming, not sinking.
How long will it last? Will I get another? What if I mess this up?
And now I’m spiraling again.
But there’s a minute, when I first open that check where it doesn’t matter if it’s a dollar or a thousand. That check says, “Someone read your words and they see you as a writer.”
The value of this check is in its validation.
I’ll spend it on my self-esteem,
Invest it in my imagination,
And deposit whatever’s left in my dreams.