What Must Not Be Named

I'm dying inside.

Grief hits me by surprise

Dragging me, drowning me like the ocean's tide

It hurts so much that I can't even cry.

I've tried

So hard for so long to fly

Or at least keep my head afloat, but why

Why can't I seem to find

The will to survive

Or a way to revive

And can't even summon the strength to say 

Goodbye.