Darkness

I lay awake in bed, Staring into nothingness.

The feeling of loneliness, takes over me

And I start remembering things

I don't want to, Making me collapse down to my feet.

The overwhelming feeling of living up to their expectations

Beats me down, by the second

I try and try But it feels useless

School isn't what is used to be

And being a role model for someone else,

when you're struggling yourself is hard.

I take a deep breath, Wipe my face off,

say goodbye to my parents

As if i wasn't just bawling my eyes off

10 minutes ago and head out the door.

Thoughts start to arise in my head.

I look back at my house

Knowing I can't leave my anxiety there.

Dreading to leave, I cross the street and wait

Waiting

I step onto the bus, feeling anxious that I have to be

In an uncomforting place. So I put my headphones on and

Drown everyone out with base. Most people don't understand

what it's like,Major anxiety crawling through my veins

Stabbing me like a knife It spreads through my thoughts

Like a disease. Walking through the school halls,

Receiving dirty looks, Random stairs

And getting talked down to, like i'm lesser than everyone

Makes me paranoid to ever Walk inside school again.

The routine ever stops.