The Love She Has For You

Hi friends, I haven't been active for a long time, but I'm trying to get back into it. The following is a message to a close friend that I'll never send...

She holds so much love in her eyes

For you

And it makes me saddened in a way

To think I couldn't be that for you

For anyone I spose

I'm worried for what this means

I trust her eyes

I do

But I scared that I

Don't have a place

In your life

I'm not sure what this means for me

I'm not sure what it means

When my heart feels bruised

Like the scars from my last heartbreak

Are re-opening

Not enough to feel the full pain

But enough to make my chest ache

I feel like I've failed time and time again

And while I am so glad to see you shine

To see you glow

To feel your joy

I just feel like once again

I need to rebuild

And fortify

And harden myself until there's no pain left

I just hope she likes me

So I don't have to leave

So then I won't be left alone

(You need to make sure her happiness comes first, if she doesn't like me then I won't argue and I won't fight it, because she has every right to tell you if my presence makes her uncomfortable and you have every responsibility to make sure she doesnt need to worry one bit)