Holding Back For Who?
Thirty drunken minutes later
The wave of emotions I was
Why does my mind betray me?
Everything I do should make me
happy and in place of that is
and completely forced
I don't feel alone because nobody
I feel alone because I don't want
anyone to touch me
hearing people speak makes me
the fact the I cannot not fake a
smile makes me hate myself.
I don't want to pretend anymore
I don't want to hide from others
I still want to hide from myself.