Broken Abyss

I have been broken

In so many ways

But this time

I’m shattered down

to the core

I think I must go

No way I could stay

And yet I am frozen

Behind this locked door

I know I can’t take this

I would if I could

I’m tired and this abyss

Has fucked me up good

How could this happen now

As I wither away

My life is now trapped somehow

Not much left to decay

Pound by pound

My body has been failing

And what I have found

The ship of death

Is sailing

I could of gone content

But you turned on our own son

And now when my

Life ends

He’ll be left with no one

You know I had accepted

This to be my creeping fate

But this was unexpected

And thanks to you

It’s all too late

I now know how it feels

To be broken all the way

And nowhere to reveal

A safe place for my kid to stay

This isn’t just me broken

I am shattered and defeated

And this can’t go unspoken

To ghost a child

When you are needed

I struggle everyday

And each one could be my last

I wish that I could stay

But I fear it’s coming fast

I try to hold on

As broken pieces slowly rot

I hope to stay strong

And find my son a worthy spot

Daniel J Dabney

And my fucked up mind