tw: s/h
last night
i searched my bedroom
for something sharp
sharp enough
to hurt, just this once
i want to hurt so i can watch myself heal
and maybe then
it'll feel better
i came across a hair pin
of faux gold
snapped it in two
and ran my fingertip
along its metal teeth
teeth sharp enough to hurt
hair pin against my arm
a dent, maybe, or a scrape
i never once saw red
maybe i am not brave enough
to press down, to not flinch
when my skin gives
to my frustration
confusion
that never seems to clear
shampoo in my eyes
my intrusive thoughts taste like
coconut
but they burn
they BURN
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imcold
you write everything i think but beautifully like when you said "i want to hurt so i can watch myself heal" and "maybe i am not brave enough" omgggg @coldfront also great job not giving in :o

apricotjam
I'm so sorry you relate to such heavy things, but it is nice to not be alone. I feel like we are really similar, lol. Thank you so much x

LittleBugs
<3