selfish heroes

i need a hero who quits. i need a hero who fails, who gets beaten down and stays down, who finds comfort in breaking down and is not resilient.

i need a hero who takes the easy way out, who leans on their support systems until they break, who is fundamentally not supposed to save anyone because they can't even save themselves. i don't know how they keep going. neither do they. maybe they don't.

i can't with the chosen one trope who's just so brave and will always do the right thing. i need someone who fucks up again and again and again and knows they are and chooses to do it anyway. i need someone who hates living and doing things that are right, who doesn't "do it anyway", they do it for something really fuckin stupid like banana waffles or their little cousin who lives in malta or just so they can pay their rent. i need selfish heroes.