giving up my whole life

i sold my soul up the road

for a Carole king vinyl

im gonna lay on the floor

and sing along in denial

i pretend you still love me

and it’s not too late

make believe that i’m not free

that i have two dinners to plate

but i’m eating alone tonight

after giving up my whole life

to household chores

to let myself be yours

i cleaned out the car

of your old cigarettes

and i drove to the bar

to drink and try to forget

i pretend that you’ll come in and see

me leaving on the broken jukebox

i dream you’re coming home with me

that there’s still time on our clock

but i’m sleeping alone tonight

after giving up my whole life

to finding you cures

and letting myself be yours

it doesn’t matter how hard i pretend

you’re not here when the night ends

i’m not what you want anymore

so i’ll be alone tonight and forevermore