I am sad,

lonely,

angry,

forgotten.

It’s almost as if

I’ve fallen off the face of the Earth,

floating deeper and deeper into the abyss,

watching as my world

gets smaller and smaller.

No one notices my absence,

no one looks for me,

hidden away in the dark corners of my mind.

Everyone keeps following the same mindless routine,

everyone keeps going about their lives

as if I never existed.

I cry out for help,

hoping someone will notice me,

but it’s as if I’m a ghost

lost in limbo.

I’ve become so fucking distant

from all of my friends.

I’m sorry,

but I can’t stand

being the outsider

even among my closest friends.

I can only have a conversation that begins

“’Are you coming to the party tomorrow?

…

Wait, no one told you about it?

Oh, I guess we forgot to tell you,

but do you think you can attend?’”

so many fucking times

before I begin to feel left out.

No, you did not tell me,

once again you left me out of your plans,

once again

you try to blame others for not inviting me

even though you tell them

time and time again,

not to invite anyone outside of your little group chat

you refuse to add me to.

You know what?

no,

I won’t be going,

fuck you and everyone else.

Spare me the bullshit

and tell me straight up

if you really wanted me there.

I’m tired of wasting my time and energy

trying to get your attention,

it’s obvious you don’t even bother

to look up once in a while.

If you stopped running your damn mouth

and talking shit about people…

good people for that matter,

you might be able to realize

how absolutely toxic you really are.

Enough about that,

I’m so emotionally drained

by the shit that’s going on

in my personal life,

I literally don’t have the energy to care.