Suffocating

I feel like I am going crazy.

I have all these thoughts running through my head.

They don’t seem real.

I seem too full.

They are just thoughts…

That’s what she’d say.

You can just walk away….

That’s what she’d also say.

But I can’t.

It’s hard.

They keep coming back.

I don’t know what to do.

I don’t know what to say.

But these thoughts

Just don’t go away.

Wait.

Sometimes. Sometimes

They go away.

They go away.

When shes away.

They go away….

When I am with him.

He’s there for me.

He sees me.

He encourages me.

Good things. Only good things.

Are here, with me.

When he’s….

With me…

She’s suffocating….

It’s hard.

She just wants to be there for me.

She thinks I don’t let her in.

She gets jealous to easily.

Because of me.

I don’t want to be like her.

I am like her.

But I am also me.

I don’t want to be like her.

When I’m a mother.

I don’t want to be her.

Like she has been with me.

I want to be me.

Just me.

I

Want

To

Be

Me