Lifesaver

Writing for me has purely been an outlet. I found myself enjoying the challenge of putting complex human emotions into words. I actually started writing when I was 11 or 12 when my parents were beginning to divorce. I found myself unable to express emotions in any other form that wasn't written. I experienced trauma the same way I experienced a restaurant getting my food order wrong. I would register the event with annoyance and just move on. I never knew how to process trauma in a healthy way. Because I held everything in, it would beat the walls of my brain trying to get out. I had to let it out some way, so I chose to write. Many years and traumas later I am here in my twenties still writing. I am definitely in a better place now, but I am still trying to process my past and writing has helped that process. Writing has always been a friend to me. I can write anything without fear of judgement or pity and it has been exhilerating in a way. I hope one day I can be a published writer, so that I can inspire people and relate with others through my experiences. I wouldn't be able to form the correct concotion of words to express how much writing means to me. It has saved my life and stayed by my side continuously. I don't even care if people read what I write. It just feels good to write, to create, to express, and to just lay everything out there.

Sorry for the messy state of this passage. I just wrote what I was thinking. (: