How I wish...

If I have one wish that I want to be granted...

I will wish that it's my wish to be different.

To have a different gender.

I don't know, I've always been thinking about that.

Is it because I'm mad? Is it because I'm hurting?

Or is it because I'm sad?

It's funny. I know. Who would wish to be different, right?

But... I do.

There are so many things that I can't do or can't believe. There are so many things hidden to me. There are so many things I endure the pain, the mistreatment, the discrimination and so many other things. There are so many hearsays. And the most famous ones? Everybody says, our kinds are weak. Weaker than the other. As weak as a fishbone to the beef bone. There are so many prejudices about us.

That's why I want to be strong. If you're that gender, everybody thinks and believe that you are strong even without proving yourself. That you are full of courage and can't be easily defeated. That gender will makes you realize how unvaluable you get sometimes. Even if the world screams that they are not like that these times... there are still people who never stops criticizing us.

Would you blame me?

If I'm not that proud to flaunt my gender? That because of those people, I am sad? Mad? Hurting? And miserable?

Would you really blame me?

That's why... how I really wish... I would be different.