sometimes i want to die without actually having to .

is that really so much to ask for ?

you can put a gun to my head , and I'd say please . Shoot .

you can give me the most antagonising death ever ,

burn me alive , detach my limbs one by one ,

and I'd still say thanks .

And everyone around me is just saying

" bE pOsItiVe "

" iT's nOt ThAt haRd "

well not to be rude but

if i could be positive .

in this current moment .

wouldn't you think I'd have already tried it ?

if i could be positive .

i wouldn't be in this situation right now .

i tried it and failed .

oh so miserably .

i only dug myself deeper into a pit filled with quick sand .

the more i squirm ,

the more i get sucked in ,

the deeper i go .

i'm already at rock bottom .

my next destination is 6-feet under .