your words

your words

twisting

contorting

changing colors and shape

taking hold of my ears

working down

down

down...

into the hole within my chest

or at least

it once was a hole

for the skin has closed over

a numbness

so deep

so profound

i fear i will never recover

and yet...

and yet...

and yet...

your words

prodding that place

until it bleeds

bleeding

pain

finally

pain

i fear the scar of my heart

is broken

bloody

and i am feeling

even if all i’m feeling is pain

pain

welcome

the pain is welcome

i am crying

i am laughing

i am loving

i am hating

it doesn’t make sense

but yet

you understand

you understand because you knew

you knew that pain was my answer

because pain was what i was hiding from