almost is never enough

I have never been lucky in love.

Blame it on my chaotic family or my trust issues or my choice in partners, but I have almost had it several times. I have been so close to love so many times, I'm beginning to wonder if it just isn't in the cards for me.

To be fair, I have loved someone before. Deeply. Twice, actually.

But, for whatever reason, either time, we couldn't make it work. Whether it was just bad timing or something different, it never happened.

So, I've felt heartbreak and love and hurt and everything in between, but I still haven't known what it is to belong to another person.

I've been so close that I could taste it, but it turned out to be an almost. And almost is never enough.