I’ve come to understand
that it is okay
to take as much time as I need
and that even if
it looks like nothing has changed
on the outside,
there is still hope
that on the inside,
I am blooming
growing my new soft pink wings
innocent as a small baby;
I am reclaiming my power
as a goddess, a woman,
to be forever changed
and forged into
a brilliant, sparkly diamond...
illuminating my inner world
with a soft glittery white light....
the light of newfound love-
for myself, for how far I have come now,
the light of compassion and forgiveness-
for my past self and the choices she made,
the light of childlike innocence at having new things to do, to see and to experience from hereon
for my future self;
And now there’s only me
and my happiness
and my feminity
and my innocence...
and for me, now, these are enough
these are all I need-
to embody my inner feminine
and protect my innocent heart and soul;
I am loved (by me), I am whole.
and for always,
this is enough
- I am happy now. Much happier than I’ve been in more than a year. I am happy now. :)
- This is not to say that I do not miss you or I do not love you- I do, I do, I do.
But loving you is breaking me in ways I never thought possible, and I need me now; you won’t feel the loss because you will always have people and kin who love you; but I don’t, and I won’t.
I need me now.
-This is not to say that I wish things would have been different or we could have met at another time; but this is how it is;
and sometimes, I think that you may have done the single best thing ever (in your life) by rejecting my love, care, affection, compassion and friendship.
-You did a good thing; and I understand.
-I also understand that sometimes (all the time for me??) people don’t want you no matter how you may be; and they are allowed to not want you, and you are allowed to move on if it gets too hard...
-It happens, it’s okay.
I’m saying this to three people- you, me and my inner child- she doesn’t want to let go.
-Better things are waiting for me.
And I need to go now.
If you want me, dearest, you know where to find me.