Behind my Smile

As I sit at my desk smiling

Yet

I feel like I’m on a boat going under

It’s sinking, and the only thing I can do is try and keep my head above the water.

I feel the current pulling me.

And I am giving in because I can’t handle the weight of my own body anymore

The water welcomes me in with warm, loving arms

But it’s a trap

The air is ripped from my lungs, and I let out a single tear

Because I know that’s the only thing I can do

Cry

She’s pathetic, they’ll say

A real trainwreck

Little do they know behind my smile, I’m sinking