no

sorry but no.

i find it hard to sympathize

with the fact that you have ten guys all over you

and don’t know how to choose

don’t know how to reject them

How could the closest one to

single

of the friend group be able to help?

Sorry but i just don’t

want to hear about how wanted you are

Anymore

How many people

like you

love you

wanna be you

’cause i’m trying to be me

trying to like me

and the love for you reminds me

Why i shouldn’t have friends in the first place.

i should be happy for you

but all i can think that’s one more person that would pick you over me

one more race i want to win

but lost.

again.

i’m good at befriending the people who everyone loves

then watching them slowly drift away

realizing there are better options

realizing it doesn’t need to be so difficult

deciding i’m just not worth the effort anymore.

And i know it’s my fault

ok?

i know i should try more make an effort

to do

something

besides sit there silently

trying not to cry

but how can you expect that…

each person that picks them over me

kills me just a little more,

another stab to my confidence

my self worth

my ability to get up every morning

until soon you’re just gonna see the broken pieces

the crumbling girl

who stopped trying

and made her

disappearance

complete.