red string

i thought you were my soulmate.

we were tied together with red string

bondage that could not be broken

with time or distance.

but the bond turned black,

red string turned black as it fed on my despair

red string turned black as it drank my energy,

sucking me dry.

i thought you were my soulmate

but that was just a fever dream

a dream as red hot as the string that tied us together.

i thought you were a project,

that was my first mistake.

i thought it was up to me to fix you.

i thought i was the only one who could.

but you poisoned me,

turned the red string black

and cold as ash.

our fire burned out

and you left it on me

to restart it.

tell me why did i even try

to relight a fire

when you kept dousing the tinder in water?

you wanted me to fail,

delighted in my struggle.

yet still, i kept trying to heal us.

but it's a lot easier to color a red string black

than it is to color a black string red.

i tried to make the best of pain

i tried to give you my best.

but just like the color black,

you absorbed all my light

and consumed it with your darkness.