and I don't know what to do

when so much is expected of you, you start to feel the same. You start to give yourself the same expectations

My heart aches.

There is so much to do, and not enough time to do it, and yet

there is still so much time left in the day.

The days are so long and the nights are so short

I am not sleeping

I here her loud breathing in the night

everything about her makes me furious

she reminds me

why I don't want to be here

she reminds me

of the expectations

the burden I carry with me is heavy

she sees me walk with it and does not offer to share the load

and when I ask her

"Then why are you here"

she looks at me as if to say

"To make your days long

and your nights short

so that you may never sleep again"