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How are you, really? How is your life?
Take this however you want- a vent to get stuff out, a space to talk about the small/random things no one listens to, etc. One of my favorite things to do is listen. So, have at it, I'm all ears.
Ended March 17, 2021 • 24 Entries • Created by Never_more
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How are you, really? How is your life?
Take this however you want- a vent to get stuff out, a space to talk about the small/random things no one listens to, etc. One of my favorite things to do is listen. So, have at it, I'm all ears.
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Heartprints

Things just aren’t the same.

It started when life knocked my rose tinted glasses clean off my freckled face, exposing my green eyes to the world, and I realized they didn’t love me the same as their other daughters. I always told myself I kept the glasses on because my eyes don’t match with theirs. Without the glasses I saw clearly the differences in our upbringing, nothing alike yet somehow the same, it was like waking from a dream. I’m ashamed to tell you just how long I wore those glasses. Doesn’t really matter though.

Things just aren’t the same.

It got worse when I found out by accident that she’d lied to me. The man on my birth certificate, the man who’s attention my young self begged for once upon a time, wasn’t my father. She’d never planned to tell me, even pretended she didn’t know. I can always tell, when someone isn’t being honest with themselves. “Are you surprised?” echos through my mind when I think about it, as if she’d just thrown me a birthday party. Of course, this revelation became all about her and how it impacted my step father, whom she had also never told.

Things just aren’t the same.

I found out he always knew about me, my real bio dad. He took pride in his hippie days and all of the seeds he’d planted throughout. I was just another trophy on a shelf for him and every postive attribute I possess is his gift to me. My high intelligence, my perseverance, my ability to adapt and survive a shitty childhood, you’re welcome. For he sees the demons, didn’t I know? Too busy saving the world from them (saving us all in truth and shouldn’t we be grateful) to be a father. Some of the seeds were watered by him over the years, not me of course, but I am heartier and stronger because I had to adapt in a world not made for people like us. I was left out in the cold, an experiment to observe, will she thrive or wither? I am the most like him (his greatest compliment) because I had to fend for myself and shouldn’t I be thankful?

Things just aren’t the same.

When you discover it’s all a lie,

the sad little pieces of love gathered close over the years aren’t real,

a heart covered in little paper mache IOU’s with no intrinsic value.

Things just aren’t the same.

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gconnor 
this hits home on a lot of levels; you're rlly talented
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Heartprints 
@gconnor I am humbled by your praise. Thank you so much for reading and for taking the time to comment. It means a great deal to me, my friend <3
Hamartanein 
“When you discover it’s all a lie, the sad little pieces of love gathered close over the years aren’t real, a heart covered in little paper mache IOU’s with no intrinsic value.” These, the perfect words I’ve long sought to describe my own sentiment. Thank you, @heartprints
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Heartprints 
@Hamartanein that, for me, is the highest of praise. Thank you so very much <3
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