Pseudo-Human

Because of you who start ringing whimsically,

leaving the days full of laughter,

I’m snarling on the ceiling that was far away,

unable to move onto the next chapter

People like taking a breath today,

and just watching the days that aren’t filled with joy

This is my life-

I can only watch, and cling onto the world I wanted to destroy

More than a deep cut from a sharp blade,

the hole in my heart I didn’t know about was painful

When I opened it up, there is no name in the dictionary

I don’t give a crap, the world isn’t beautiful

Did you know that without becoming a person in the form of a person,

I loved the world that I cursed at and resented?

I’m dreaming that this heart just pulsates

They call me a pseudo-human, the name they invented

More things I can’t tell anyone, proof of human heart

Hey, this is me, don’t you get it?

You don’t have to like me if you don’t want to

You remember me, don’t you? You can hate me if you think it's fit

I taunted the words ‘love’ and ‘the future’ somewhere, what annoying words

No matter how hard I try to sing, tears are welling up my eyes

I’m helplessly lonely, holding onto this day

I wish my heart can just stop beating and dies

I have a gentle dream that makes me frightened-

call me a human, please!

I leave the days that I wanted to laugh due to your ringing

I’m snarling on that ceiling that was far away, without ease

Please, I beg you to just step on me and treat me like trash!

I couldn’t become a person in a human body

I loved the world that I cursed and resented

I was just a failed copy, so shoddy

I couldn’t become a kind person

I loved my empty life

My heart, my heart, I wish you would just stop beating

The cruel world that was filled with strife