the one to come.

My most joyful memory is yet to come. But I know exactly what it's gonna be like.

I see myself standing upon a shore, at night, hearing nothing but the crashing waves. There's a lighthouse nearby and I can see its light come and go. I look up and the sky is full of stars. The night is warm so I lay down on a sand.

I think of the first time I met Him.

I think of that day he took me to the opera and my highheels were making noise on these cobblestones. I think about how I missed my last train and he walked me all the way home at 2 am and how he took me in his arms when my feet started to hurt. I remember it started snowing. And I could feel that I'm slowly falling just like snow that night.

I remember how he looked me in the eyes and asked me "There's something here, isn't it?"

And how since that moment to all of His questions I'd say "Yes".

I think of that one time when I failed hard and I was heartbroken but He took all my failures and showed me how to turn them into lessons.

I remember how I heard a word "mum" and how for the first time in my life it was adressed to me.

I think of all goodbyes I had to accept and how I thought I wouldn't move on but each time I did.

I think how many times my world collapsed but I rebuilt it with the help of my loved ones.

And how my best friend passed away and I cried in His arms thinking "I'm nobody's child anymore".

I think that it's getting colder and colder and I wanna get up and leave the beach but He shows up and builts a fire just to keep me warm.

I look at His face and under these wrinkles, silver hair, I see a boy who was to shy to kiss me so I had to make first move. He grabs my hand and asks:

"What are you thinking about?"

And I say:

"I think how many times I wished life would be easier and how glad I am it wasn't"

He gives me that smile that could mean anything, the smile that got me through until this very moment.

"I'm happy, you know?", I say.

He nods his head, He looks up and once again we watch the world together.

"This is good life", He whispers.

I will smile then, just as I'm smiling now, waiting patiently for this to happen.