It All Starts with You (Me)

Being raised by parents who always found things in this world to blame for not having what they want in this world despite accomplishing a modest middle class lifestyle was contagious. Don't have the job I want because society this, don't have the body I want because costs of that, etc.

Over the years into adolescence, I knew they were the origin of me thinking the same way. Unfortunately, until a few years ago, I was thinking the same way they did, towards them. Yeah, it's hard to break a mentality that stems from family, but it's still on me. Once I acknowledged that, I started taking more risks (calculated ones of course) and got better about taking care of myself and calling myself out for mistakes in relationships with other family and friends. I still have a lot of desires in my life to accomplish, but I feel far less helpless and bitter towards accomplishing them. Friends are more interested in seeing me and come to me rather than awkwardly avoid me when in need.

Not where I want to be ultimately in life, but the shift in mindset has helped blow the dust off the blueprints to get there.