No Need

No need to

APOLOGIZE

for you have done nothing

WRONG

But you don't know what I've done,

the NIGHTMARES that I enjoy

the deeds I wish could be

UNDONE.

You say there's no need

to say sorry

yet I have so much

to apologize for.

I'm sorry

because

I've always been yours

and yet all the things you say

fall through the holes in my psyche.

I wish

I could

FORGIVE

myself,

but how can you forgive me

when you know not what I've done?

Can you ever understand

that evil is a state of mind

one that I exist in?

So don't say

there's no need

to apologize

because there's no need

for you to know my original sin

I will keep it to myself.

You will stand by my side,

yet won't know

if you're left or right

Even by my side,

you're above me,

because I've sunk so low

I'll never return

My body is trapped

in the concrete sidewalk you walk upon

And you walk upon my body with ease.

You think you're by my side

but you're already inside

and I will forever hang

upside down

on the outside.

Don't tell me there's no need to apologize

because my every need is satisfied

by pain.

No need

to say anything more.

Because I will keep apologizing

and you'll keep believing

my lies.