Fire & Ice - or, the two ends of a depressive episode

It is fire

It is rage

It is anger

Anger at a world you can't fix

Anger at yourself for being this way

Anger at God for making you suffer

Anger

Rage

White hot

Blinding

Hatred

For the world

For yourself

For God

You punch the wall

The reasons not known to you

You know nothing

You can do nothing

You are

Nothing.

It is ice

It is apathy

It is indifference

Indifferent to a world you can't fix

Indifferent to yourself for being this way

Indifferent to a God that makes you suffer

Indifferent

I am nothing

I feel nothing

IamsadIamtiredIamangry

All at once

I am confused

I am scared

I am alone

I have too many emotions I don't know what to do with

I feel everything

I feel nothing

All at once.

What am I to do?

I am tired

I am tired.

I

Am

Tired.