e d g e s

when i was little

i saw you,

members of my familiy,

i saw you as

failures.

see i remember on my tenth birthday

i told you i wasn’t gonna be

the way you are.

and you said that

if i say so, i will become

even worse,

you said to the ten year old me

that she was gonna be chain smoker.

see people don’t understand

why i’ve never touched a cigarette or got drunk

with twenty. i’m not cool.

they don’t understand that i fight against my tendencies

because no, i won’t prove you right.

they don’t understand that

i stay away from edges ’cause i know i’d trip.

when i was little

i believed that it was gonna be

the easiest thing in the world

to create myself a better life

than you have.