First

Time I ever saw you in that way

laying out

your spearmint gum pathway

sticking to the gaps in my fingers

so I couldn’t open my eyes anymore as you decided to

Kiss

Me and make my heart flutter

I’m sure this is harder in hindsight

I’m sure it didn’t feel like tar in my heart

when it happened

but now I’m tainted by what you broke of my

First

Love with arms wide open

and all day to spend with me

yours and mine and ours

all yours

I know now that there was nothing

in your eyes

but how could there be

nothing

in those eyes

as he leant in to

Kiss

My teary face

in memories

and the occasional fever dream that leaves me shaking

waking, shaking

cold sweat

fever

First

Goodbye

first time I wanted to die and just forget you

oh but I could never forget you

I snarl as I think of how I could forgive you

for

anything

even a stolen

Kiss

I wish I never pined for

never wanted

want

need

to let you go

and yet there are first kisses clinging to the atoms of my face

in insurmountable quantities

have you

forgotten me yet