Im tired. 

Im tired of people saying I should be nice. Saying I need to understand. 

I understand but I will not be your punching bag any more....  

Im emotionally exhausted. You never supported me like I do you. You made my mental illness worse than it needed to be and in hindsight probably caused the majority of it. 

You made me feel crazy. I can not save everyone and I am sorry I am not the person you wish I was. But at this point I am not apologising any more. Im sick of tip toeing around you. Im sick of being blamed for everything. Guess what..... im not ok. 

Why do I have to be the strong one. Why do I need to rescue people. 

Im done apologising because your uncomfortable. Im happy with who I am now and you don't get to dictate my faults. I am human. 

I would prefer a good punch to the face if the alternative is the emotional abuse that you pretend is every day life. I dont deserve to be criticised about my washing. The way I wipe a bench or the way I live my life i any way shape or form. You are not my mother. 

Nut dont upset you... you have mental health issues.  You know what.... so do I. It doesn't give me a reason  to make everyone around me feel like shit. 

I told you a long time when I stop crying you should be worried. Because when I stop caring I shut down. And im sorry to tell you but I will support you to the day I die. But I will not be your scapegoat any more. 

Im done.