The Unraveling

things have felt off lately,

i just can’t be sure what

i’m starting to feel like i’m stuck in a rut

i know that i’ve changed,

i can feel it deep down

i don’t want to admit it because i look like a clown

i know what i want,

it’s never wavered in my mind

but if i’m staying with you, i leave all that behind

i’m bent over backwards, i’m gonna fall soon

my eyes are now open, but still i cling onto you

you won’t tell me you love me,

it’s been over a year

when are you going to stop living in fear?

i’ve proven myself,

all my love and devotion

so why are you showing such a lack of emotion?

you know that i want you,

all strings attached

so you’ve tied me around your finger,

your way of keeping me latched

this isn’t fair, what i want doesn’t matter

i can’t keep serving you with my heart on a platter

you said you don’t want commitment,

you’re scared to let your feelings show

i’d probably be better off if you would just let me go

i’ve held on so long,

tried so hard to make this work

but actually leaving would make me look like a jerk

i told you i’d be here,

i don’t really want to go

i just want the commitment, and you already know

it’s weighing heavy on my heart,

i really don’t know what to do

i can’t even see myself actually leaving you

you’re my best friend,

my safe space, you’re my home

and the more i think about it,

the more i see that i’m still scared to be

alone