love, thesaurus definition

love, thesaurus definition:

synonymous for throwing rocks at the window

of the dying house in the woods just to hear

something besides myself. to look at the 

broken glass on the ground and think, 

"that's me." there is a metaphor here

somewhere, but don't try to find it.

when i see my phone light up with your

name, i am a thesaurus definition of the crickets in

the meadow past your house: noise, blast, buzz,

clamor, crash, cry. you'll notice none of those words are

actually the same. what i mean is, let's go to

the grocery store and talk about every time we

ever lost our parents in the aisles. how my loneliness

is the same as the squeeze of your heart when you

ran to who you thought was your dad just to

find a stranger's face. what i mean is, let's be birds but not

the singing ones. no, not the colorful ones either. let's be

ordinary and desaturated in our nest of the world.

i love you theoretically, in the way i love

the dying house, in the way i love the dying

city, in the way i love fire- in the distance or

else when it's all falling apart. still there's the

burn on my finger. still there's the airport line. and

still, the broken glass on the ground.