Defying Smile

Temptation arises from deep desire,

It starts deep in your heart,

It creeps up your spine,

Reveals itself in the moonshine.

Temptation arises from money: it's called greed.

Arises from food: it's called gluttony.

From knowledge: it's called lying.

But strongest temptation arises from you.

You are glue between my pieces,

You hold me accountable,

Make me reset.

Yet after every time I come back to the temptation that arises from you.

It makes me upset not to know exactly where you are,

Makes me upset not to know when you will be back,

Not to know with whom you are there,

I hold on to myself, let the temptation rush through, let it go back to an ebb.

But flood always comes back.

When you stand before me it takes all not to look,

It takes all of me not to speak up,

It takes all not to reach out,

Takes all not to touch.

I hold back, so not to break into your life,

Like a madman clutching his knife.

One day the steadfast fortress is broken,

You flash a defying smile at me,

The walls crumble fast,

Faster than I can stack bricks, I can't make it last.

Temptation gets the best of me,

I rush out to you and get on one knee,

Your smile turns upside down, into a gravely frown,

Baby the walls are broken, Temptation is set free,

It gets the best of me.

I take you to the fortress in my mind,

Stack the bricks up again, now plated and metal lined,

You scream and cry, cry for God and curse, call me a maggot,

The defying smile never shows up again,

So the fortress stays as it is, forever than.