Twisting phrases to make meaning in the darkness

If I charged you rent for the places you occupy in my mind you'd be penniless. That's really just a dark somewhat different way to say I think about you a lot. I wish I could pay pest control to sweep the wisps of your voice from head while I lie in bed and try not to dream of you. Your eyes are so fucking blue I'm listening to Billie Eilish while thinking of you. But you told me what you did, and I know how it feels to be done that way. So why can't I make these thoughts of you go away?