Rejection

I’ve been pondering over this for a little while now trying to figure out my true fear. After a little while I figured it out. It is a fear that sort of lingers in my personality. For me it would have to be the fear of rejection.

This fear has presented itself in many situations throughout my life. I’m very scared of disappointing the people around me. Whenever I behave wrongly in front of my friends or family I get scared that I’ve damaged my relationship to them and the thought of it plagues my mind for a long time. I want to be liked by people and when I say or do something bad to anyone, I’m afraid that I’ll be rejected by them.

I also get scared when people set their expectations high for me such as teachers in school giving me a really hard assignment. I get stressed out over whether I’ll be able to do a good job or not. I tend to set expectations high for myself when working so that I can impress the people around me and to prove that I can be helpful to people.

I also get kinda scared in new situations since I don’t understand what the expectations are and whether I’m really doing a good job or not.

I can get very shy around people I don’t know because I don’t want to come off the wrong way to anyone and be rejected by them for it.

To be honest this fear hasn’t been that detrimental to me and it does contribute to a lot of the good aspects about myself such as my desire to make people happy.