I’m here! (For a certain Mika-chan)

Notes: This is written for one of my best friends I met on Instagram. It’s sad that she decided to closed her DMs last night, however I would like to say that I am glad to be one of the last people she talked to before closing it, which makes me feel that she would not forget me easily. Although the closing made me cry a lot last night and well... Imma pour my heart out on prose. This is dedicated to my dear friend... Lory.

Opening:

We grown from strangers

to close friends

starting with a DM

that you sent.

No that you are closing it

I feel emptiness

Like a carrier without a soul.

Begginings:

It all started with that DM

On a Monday, 6am

I went on Instagram

and found you sitting in my requests.

We then talked a lot

From dusk till dawn,

morning till night

Spent every 24 hours

talking to you.

At first you were skeptical:

Who I was, what I am

Was I a creep?

A bot?

You won’t know.

But I assured you that

I was real.

One Month:

I spent my CNY celebration with you.

On the internet, sitting cross-legged on the sofa

burning data.

We talked our about our lifes on the other side of Earth

One in Asia, one in Europe.

You taught me so much about your land

I began to feel the real

Happy...

Two Months:

Two months passed as we talked

as the storm brewed on, bubbling.

However, we stood strong together.

We then started roleplays:

You as “Yuichiro”

Me as “Mikaela”

Two as brothers

Us as sisters.

Time flies:

As the months fly by,

the storm went out of control.

A gap of a wide, endless ocean

seperating us.

We all are depressed

We all grew distant

Narrowing down to a mere “How are yous”

Once in awhile.

Regrets:

I really regretted

Not talking to you

while we still could.

Now I know its too late

I am always too late.

Life is full of regrets

But I wanna say something.

Hopefully it won’t be too

Late...

“I will be here for you”

No matter where you go,

how far to you go,

where in society you lie,

I am here for you.

When you need advice, when you need to rant

When you just need help

Just remember

I’m here. Always here.

I am still your friend,

Your hope

Your torch

Your Determination.

Final words:

No matter where you are

Or whether this will reach you...

I just wish to tell you that:

“I am here for you.”

08.07.20

Your friend, Evie