Suicidal

I dislike this on and off feeling

One time I feel like I am on top of the world

And other,at the bottom of the world

I want to seek help

But what exactly would I say

I can’t really describe it with words

I feel like darkness is crawling in but I can't seem to come into light

I know what I am meant to do

But I can't bring myself to do it

But I can't bring myself to do iit

My pois self is clawing begging to be set free

But I just can't let it out

And I also can't let it stay

I am confused

I know that suicide isn't the answer

But why does it come to my mind repeatedly

Why does it wander back no matter how many times I cast it out

Cause I can only feel suicidal

But I am to weak to commit suicide