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Poetry About Mental Illnesses
ADHD, anxiety, OCD, depression- anything! Tag me, please!
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waxfruit in Poetry & Free Verse

Trust the Process

I am both 100% in control and also in control of nothing. Trust the process 

I want to scream 

Trust the process 

coming here makes me anxious 

trust the process 

I don't want to study myself any longer 

trust the process 

I am broken no one knows me now

trust the process 

God has established that some people are meant to suffer, I accept that now

trust the process 

I don't know why I come here

trust the process 

I saw a movie you should see, it helped me see myself in the present 

trust the process 

Your office is comfortable, I do trust you, but please tell me how to be fixed 

trust the process 

I started looking at art instead of media and I feel different 

trust the process 

I come here, and I could just be praying... I think I just need to talk to God

trust the process 

Your office is fine, the music in the waiting room however could be changed beUSE IT MAKES ME ANXIOUS AS FUCK, YOU KNOW I AM CHRISTIAN BUT YOU PLAY THAT NEW AGE SPIRITUAL BULLSHIT AND IT MAKES ME THINK LESS OF YOUR STAKE IN MY MEntal health; please don't take offense to that; 

trust the process 

I have been praying more

trust the process

No one sees me 

trust the process 

I am so LONELY and you are not helping me 

trust the process 

If this is me now PLEASE HELP ME GET MEDICAL COVERAGE TO HAVE MY VOICEBOX REMOVED so I just can not talk ALL THE TIME

you would not be able to eat or shit properly. Worth it? Trust the process 

waiting room music is different, and everything in it which remained the same is now some how... funny; including 'trust the process'. 

life is shitty, like each bad thing is in actual equivalencies of measurement of how we view it. One shitty thing = 1 turd & vice verse.

do your shoes stink?

is your car full of shit? your kitchen? your house? where you sleep?

is where you sleep full of shit?

add up a quick snapshot of life age birth to current things with shit on them.

Are you hostile because you are trying to do everything every one THI*NKS you should, but can't

trust the process 

my 200 to do lists are scattered everywhere I don't know how to start because I don't know why I am doing what I am doing or how to process steps I took for granted my whole life 

trust the process 

Fine, I am decluttering my shit collection 

trust the process 

God help me be less like me

trust the process 

I don't want to be broken anymore 

trust the process 

talk to me so I understand you, please. say all the things I need to hear and when I ask, answer me honestly and tell me if I am doing it right

trust the process 

I am doing this all on my own now, why am I still coming here?

trust the process

I got it. I found this small bit of self

dry 

dry like a shredded twine around kindling anXIOUS TO BLOW UP OR FLICKer but please everything around me had become tinder and if I spark up I may cause a fire can you help me now?

trust the process 

im so tired im still so tired but I am here. I am here 

trust the process 

I got this list of behaviors I don't know why I do 

trust the process 

I am changing 

trust the process 

I am NOTHING I thought I was and everything I never expected yet it is neither constant or comfortable ever

I am a good person even when I failed and I do.. A LOT

I am decent, and my faith may be different then yours but its FINE 

I can have an opinion and not feel like someone either hates me or is gonna kill themselves because I am learning my words yet NONE of them seem right from my voice instead of writing 

Trust the process 

How long will this be?

Look at where you are, something must be happening that is 'right' or you would be way less. 

-r

I am 21 years or older.