Many years ago, after living in Garmish Germany, working in a Hotel for my moms friends nephew, I had never been out of the US before. I worked very hard, but got to play on my off days.

Bars and Strambads(restaurant and lake swimming), I became friends with a German girl, we use to party all night, and hard!

One night she was totally out of it, absolutely intoxicated. She barely managed to walk me back to the Hotel I worked in!

So being kind and considerate I ask her if she needed to stay in my room for the night, she agreed, I had two beds in the room so she could have the other one!

I was pretty wasted, so I went to bed, and all of a sudden she got in my bed, she told me she wanted to have sex with me, I said no, but she did anyway:

And she brutally raped me.

After that, on my way back to the USA, it haunted me.

I didn’t like the way she was abusive, but I did like being with a woman!

Where I was finally home I told my mom I was gay, that I liked women sexually, she argued with me about my choice, but she let me live the way I chose!

Being a lesbian was who I was!

Now, I am happy with my life, was a lesbian for 37 years, and not once did anyone love me for me,

Funny my middle name is Gay, but living that life was tough, I have never been with a man, nor do I want to be,

I just want to be what I am;

A Woman!!!